Hard to Say Goodbye - Bryarly Bishop
femme nightwing cosplay is coming along nicely, i think
i just need to get the mask, get the gloves, and put the turquoise on it. woop woop.
i’m gonna meet my bestest friend in three days
THREE DAYS
i can’t even put in to words how so very incredibly excited i am for this weekend
TEN DAYS TIL KEITH VISITS
i just got the most exciting birthday package in the mail from one of my very closest friends
his name is keith
and i love him
mustache mints and deep tea diver and the best letter ever
THANK YOU KEIB :D
i need some new friends that i can just totally bro the fuck out with.
i don’t have enough girl friends like that. and almost all of my guy friends are dicks now that they have girlfriends.
the realm of possibility - david levithan
“once time is lit, it will burn / whether or not you’re breathing it in. / even after smoke becomes air / there is the memory of smoke. // i am seeing, as if by the light of a match, / a glimpse of my life / and having it feel right. // this will linger.”
“i want / him to / give up. // no. // no, i / don’t”
“i’m not good at relationships / i always manage to find the flaws / sometimes in others / but mostly my own. / i foretell the ending / then go and create the cause/ save myself / and end up alone.”
“it is a horrible wonderful thing to be in love with you”
“maybe there is hope in fragments, that what is lost / can always be filled in by someone who knows”
“and i think, this is what’s eternal. / not for us, but in itself”
“take a moment to make myself presentable / for an outside world that will remain outside / even when i’m in it”
“part of what i feel for him is missing him. / part of what i know is that distance is as hard as it is easy”
“if you’re not able to laugh inside a sex shop / then you probably shouldn’t be there. / i mean, they don’t call it fooling around for nothing”
“getting what you want is just as difficult / as not getting what you want. because then / you have to figure out what to do with it / instead of figuring out what to do without it”
“how to be alone -
remember that at any given moment / there are a thousand things / you can love”
“what i love (three examples) -
being myself / being by myself / flirting without consequences”
“the discovery -
this is what my voice sounds like / i don’t need to be talking to someone else / to hear it”
“although the spiraling i do isn’t really a spiral / it only goes in one direction”
“i have never felt the urge to jump off a bridge, / but there are times i have wanted to jump / out of my life / out of my skin”
this book is flawless.
second read
“it doesn’t feel good or bad / just a buzz of different”
“i feel that if my soul could talk it would / talk like this”
“i can’t pretend to know / what love is. it just is”
“who was it / who invented / size zero? // who promised / that if you got / to a certain point / you would no / longer / be?”
“i’ve lost track of where friendship ends and falling begins. / (this is the foolish refrain of the hopelessly devoted.) / there are times i want to kiss you mid sentence. / undo the not-doing with one gesture”
“spewing all that hate in the name of the lord. / that is not the gospel. / that is not why we are here”
“i have hurt people. / different people, the same hurt. // i have done things because i wanted to. / for no other reason than wanting to.”
“breath is not aware of its history; it is just breath. / i wish i could be like that, or love could be like that”
“sad to be leaving, and a little happy to be away”
i just finished reading this for the millionth time
so
here we are
there’s a little voice in the back of my head telling me this is a horrible idea
that none of this is real
